I recognize it now. The way I deflate, take a step back and wish for physical non-existence. I disappear, shut down, throw on my invisibility cloak and dissolve. If I don’t feel, if I don’t breathe, if I become quiet and still, you don’t see me. And in that nothingness … well, nothing exists.
No pain, no fear, no worthlessness, no anger, no sadness, no disappointment, no … well, no-thing. (more…)